Posts tagged: sexuality
Came out on facebook and glad to say most everyone is supportive. I’ve been out to the majority of people for a while now but i wanted to get it out there. And i haven’t told my family because they’re evangelical fundamentalist christians who think homosexuality is evil, abhoration and disgusting. I am Bisexual BTW. here’s what i said.
Hey everyone. I HAVE SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO SAY.HEY! Got your attention? Good! Now MOST of you already know this. But I love words. I like to use them to make sense of the beautiful cacophony in my head. So I have to write this out. Okay. Okay? okay! Guys….I’m Bisexual.
Guys seriously, you’ve known me for a long time, I’ve always been like this, you just didn’t know and I just never was comfy enough in my personhood to talk about it.
Yeah that’s it. Wasn’t actually THAT big of a deal so. Keep calm, carry on. And no I was never hitting on you! Yes I hear you, in your mind, surreptitiously thinking that. Just kidding, I know you’re not thinking that. So yep that’s about it. Nothing special, nothing new, No I’m NOT CONFUSED, and yes I’m pretty damn sure, and no I’m not evil and I’m not gonna eat and roast babies. This post is probably gonna give me stomach stress cramps all night….. Ok then see you guys wherever I see you. Love you all! Be happy, Be peaceful.
P.S (And sorry Mom, Dad , Kattly and Elna and the rest of the close fam. but I am SO NOT READY to tell you guys yet . Maybe like a long time in the future. You guys REALLY aren’t ready for that and I’M not ready for that. Just hope you will be ready to handle it one day, I hope I will be ready to handle it too. Much love ♥ but for now this post remains. Unread by you.)
no joke man. smart turns me on.
So basically i’m busy with college apps. stress and stuff. Reinvention is going well. The end of this week will make 4 weeks without a weigh in and it’s been terrifying me lately. Haven’t cut in almost two months. also terrifying. and i want to very much. today was an abnormally depressed day. was on the edge of tears all day. sorry. will try harder. I keep thinking about my family and how they are going to hate and disown me someday because i’m an atheist and bisexual and disagree with everything they believe (fundamentalist evangelical seventh day adventist.) I live my life with the constant fear of this future where i’m all alone and i don’t know what to do. I plan my life accordingly to that day that moment when everything will fall apart. Everything i do, where i apply to college, what i do with my money ETC. Has to do with prepping me for my eventual disownment. No 17 year old should have to live with that but i do. Oh well.